.Fear Factor. (First Part)

What is fear? What does fear keep you from experiencing? What is the use of fear? How does fear affect your life?

1. Examine the Situation.

        Fear.. When I think about the word fear a couple of things come to my mind, personally. Over the past couple of years I feel as if fear is following me. Trying to scare me and realize things about myself that I never knew. But as you know fear cannot control you. And it shouldn't. 

        You could be scared of a movie, a boyfriend/girlfriend breaking up with you, someone breaking into your home, a car accident, or your family falling apart. Sadly, I've dealt with all of these. But again, you can't let fear control your life and ruin everything for you in the future. 

        Soooo.. I wanted to do something about those types of fears. But to this day- half of them, I don't speak of. It's something that I know happened, and I don't want to replay those things in my life. 

                             I decided to go a different route.

        Another thing that put fear into my bones is school. Yes, school. WELL- only when your getting critiqued/presenting a project/doing something embarrassing in front of the class.

                               Huummmmmmmm.......

2. Formulate an Experiment.

         I'm going to make you feel so uncomfortable in your seats.

3. Hypothesize the expected outcome.

        How do you think people (your classmates) will react to what you came up with? 

                I think they will feel nervous/embarrassed/anxious. Like the feeling when you are about to give a       project/play a game, your not really sure of the outcome or how you will do/what you will do. Also, like it's something they really don't want to do- but they have to.. because it's my project :) I bet I'm going to be hearing some "Oh No's". 

        

:: BLiSS ::

How I Feel...
     For this assignment we were asked to do something that we really loved to do, and write down how we felt during that moment in time.

Soooo... I took sometime for ME. Something that always puts me at peace, and really makes me happy.

I FELT:
- Weight off my shoulders
- Like I could take a deep breath and have no worries
- Complete
- Like I've been wanted to do this for so long and it had finally arrived: Calm
- Smiling
- Relaxed

Then took what I wrote on the piece of paper & stuck it under my pillow.

A week later... I took a little look at how I felt when I was really happy- and obviously I wanted to go back to the exact moment and be exactly where I wanted to be. I knew that I couldn't do that all the time, but it did feel really great to be able to take the time and do exactly what "I" wanted to. With nobody bothering me, or telling me to hurry- it was MY time, and I loved it. <3

LiMiTATiONS.

This week our assignment was to take a piece of paper and write down "limitations" that keep us from doing/saying/being ourselves. I found this a very interesting thing to do. So after reading the assignment I went home and wrote down a couple of things down. I actually found it really hard to write down limitations in my life. I knew they were there- but for some reason they wouldn't come to mind, when I actually had to write them down and confront them. 


Next, after making the list- I didn't want my boyfriend/anyone to find it- because I didn't want him/anyone else to think that something was seriously wrong with me, and I needed help or something? Ha. Also, I have three dogs- so one of them finding it and displaying it/tearing it apart, also passed though my mind. So I had to put actually in my pillow case. So no evidence was found. 


After the week, I went back and reread the list I had made. I noticed one that really stuck out, which was "Being myself". To sum it up- might be a good thing or a bad thing, but I'm a very outspoken person and the type who doesn't really like to beat around the bush. It's not going to help anyone and the certain situation will just be carried on way longer than it should. So sometimes I find myself having to bite my tongue. I never like to hurt anyone or make anyone upset, but sometimes people really need to hear the truth. 


Soooooooo.... during work- I found myself having to hold back. Not be as good as I knew I could be. To prove a point. Sadly it blew up in my face, because now "I'm mean". Please. I just didn't let the other person get the better half of me. Which with limitations, it held me back. 


Good thing or not?

55 Alive!

For this assignment we were asked to take the "5 AGAIN" project and revision it through the eyes of a 55 year old. So I thought long and hard about this- and honestly when I'm 55 I could see myself doing this...

Either taking the paper clips & glueing on some rhinestones, and really jazzing them up or even taking them and making them magnets to put on the fridge.. Being creative is probably the only thing keeping my mind going at that age :) kidding! I do feel though that I would do something like that- to really spice things up!