What the Bleep?... (final project/course reflection)

Seeing Sideways... Where do I start? To be honest I didn't hear about the class until I signed up for it. I was nervous, because I didn't know what we were even going to be doing. (Pre-class jitters). But after the first couple of classes, I realized that I was really going to enjoy it. It was something different from all of my other classes, the class made you reach into your childhood/creative side and really let that shine in the class. I've have had Beth in previous classes, so I knew that at least the class was going to be exciting. 


For the Final Project, (which I worked really hard on), I wanted people to see a different side of me and what truly makes me happy. Mind you I've never been good with my words, so I decided to use pictures to show how I felt. Which all-in-all works, because I love photography. Making the book about myself made me realize a lot of things... that being no matter what has happened, who has came and gone out of mine life... I always made sure to make it through and become a stronger person. 


I really enjoyed this course, and if I could I would take it every semester... just to get my mind off everything and just think & be creative. Thank You Beth. It's been a pleasure.

Who Am I?... (final project)

1. Who are you in the eyes/perception of others?  I am me. I always try to stay true to myself, and never let anything change that. 
2. How do you see/perceive yourself? I perceive myself as a hard-working, loyal, & loving person. I always strive to be the best that I can, in any circumstance. I've been through a lot since I was little & I try not to see the bad in it, but learn from it & become stronger because of it. 
3. Why are you here? (your definition of here) I am here because I'm suppose to be. Whether I am suppose to change the lives of others, to make someone smile, or be here for you when you fall. All I want to do is see the positive side of things. The grass is always greener... 
4. What are the implications of your identity to others? (you decide to whom the implications apply - you or others, but be specific) Truthfully, I don't want to know what other people think about me. Negative or positive. I just hate to be judged. I try to be the best person I can be, and yes- I admit that everyone has their days and may not be in the best mood, but that's only human. It doesn't mean that they are going to be like that forever. So, I don't want to know. 
5. How are you effected by the identity of others? (are you different around various people - why might that be) I'm actually not different around other people. I'm always myself & if you can't handle it then so be it. Granted I always try to feel people out and see if they are outgoing/shy, just because sometimes people could take me the wrong way, and then I wouldn't want anyone to judge me..
6. Is identity static? (make sure to show in your project your answer to this) I don't think so. I am me, and I wouldn't want it any other way.

.Fear Factor. (Second Part)

   4.    Conduct the experiment.

               I did my experiment with a couple of different people. What I did was put everyone's name down on a piece of paper with the numbers 1-20. After folding it in half, I wrote another list of 1-20 (with random things they had to do, ex. do 20 jumping jacks, sing a song). 

5.    Observe the reaction.

               I knew exactly what their reaction was going to be. They all were nervous because they had no idea what they were going to have to do in front of the class- which yes, it somewhat nerve-racking. I don't think they would have been as nervous if they were all doing the same thing- but since everything was different it made them on edge.

  6.    Analysis of hypothesis with actual outcome.

              I feel like they were pretty much them same. I felt like people were going to be really nervous if their name was going to get called or what they were going to have to do. 

   7.    Propose changes to your idea based on what happened.

              The only thing I would have honestly changed would have been to come up with more unique things for people to do. Clever if you will. 

Answer these questions on your blog.
    1.    What was it and who did it? 

           List of 20 names & 20 things they had to do. Someone picks 2 numbers - deciding on the person and the thing to do - person has to do it. Dale Clapp & Josh
    2.    Why did you respond to it so strongly?

            I think it was a good idea- but I wish I would have thought about it more so that it was something really unique. 
    3.    How does it impact how you see your own project?

            It didn't really impact me much, I just wanted to see people do crazy things. 

.Fear Factor. (First Part)

What is fear? What does fear keep you from experiencing? What is the use of fear? How does fear affect your life?

1. Examine the Situation.

        Fear.. When I think about the word fear a couple of things come to my mind, personally. Over the past couple of years I feel as if fear is following me. Trying to scare me and realize things about myself that I never knew. But as you know fear cannot control you. And it shouldn't. 

        You could be scared of a movie, a boyfriend/girlfriend breaking up with you, someone breaking into your home, a car accident, or your family falling apart. Sadly, I've dealt with all of these. But again, you can't let fear control your life and ruin everything for you in the future. 

        Soooo.. I wanted to do something about those types of fears. But to this day- half of them, I don't speak of. It's something that I know happened, and I don't want to replay those things in my life. 

                             I decided to go a different route.

        Another thing that put fear into my bones is school. Yes, school. WELL- only when your getting critiqued/presenting a project/doing something embarrassing in front of the class.

                               Huummmmmmmm.......

2. Formulate an Experiment.

         I'm going to make you feel so uncomfortable in your seats.

3. Hypothesize the expected outcome.

        How do you think people (your classmates) will react to what you came up with? 

                I think they will feel nervous/embarrassed/anxious. Like the feeling when you are about to give a       project/play a game, your not really sure of the outcome or how you will do/what you will do. Also, like it's something they really don't want to do- but they have to.. because it's my project :) I bet I'm going to be hearing some "Oh No's". 

        

:: BLiSS ::

How I Feel...
     For this assignment we were asked to do something that we really loved to do, and write down how we felt during that moment in time.

Soooo... I took sometime for ME. Something that always puts me at peace, and really makes me happy.

I FELT:
- Weight off my shoulders
- Like I could take a deep breath and have no worries
- Complete
- Like I've been wanted to do this for so long and it had finally arrived: Calm
- Smiling
- Relaxed

Then took what I wrote on the piece of paper & stuck it under my pillow.

A week later... I took a little look at how I felt when I was really happy- and obviously I wanted to go back to the exact moment and be exactly where I wanted to be. I knew that I couldn't do that all the time, but it did feel really great to be able to take the time and do exactly what "I" wanted to. With nobody bothering me, or telling me to hurry- it was MY time, and I loved it. <3

LiMiTATiONS.

This week our assignment was to take a piece of paper and write down "limitations" that keep us from doing/saying/being ourselves. I found this a very interesting thing to do. So after reading the assignment I went home and wrote down a couple of things down. I actually found it really hard to write down limitations in my life. I knew they were there- but for some reason they wouldn't come to mind, when I actually had to write them down and confront them. 


Next, after making the list- I didn't want my boyfriend/anyone to find it- because I didn't want him/anyone else to think that something was seriously wrong with me, and I needed help or something? Ha. Also, I have three dogs- so one of them finding it and displaying it/tearing it apart, also passed though my mind. So I had to put actually in my pillow case. So no evidence was found. 


After the week, I went back and reread the list I had made. I noticed one that really stuck out, which was "Being myself". To sum it up- might be a good thing or a bad thing, but I'm a very outspoken person and the type who doesn't really like to beat around the bush. It's not going to help anyone and the certain situation will just be carried on way longer than it should. So sometimes I find myself having to bite my tongue. I never like to hurt anyone or make anyone upset, but sometimes people really need to hear the truth. 


Soooooooo.... during work- I found myself having to hold back. Not be as good as I knew I could be. To prove a point. Sadly it blew up in my face, because now "I'm mean". Please. I just didn't let the other person get the better half of me. Which with limitations, it held me back. 


Good thing or not?

55 Alive!

For this assignment we were asked to take the "5 AGAIN" project and revision it through the eyes of a 55 year old. So I thought long and hard about this- and honestly when I'm 55 I could see myself doing this...

Either taking the paper clips & glueing on some rhinestones, and really jazzing them up or even taking them and making them magnets to put on the fridge.. Being creative is probably the only thing keeping my mind going at that age :) kidding! I do feel though that I would do something like that- to really spice things up!

5 AGAIN.

For this assignment I decided to think back to when I was 5.. and all I could remember was...

When I insisted on my mother to put paper clips in my hair. I don't know what I was thinking, but I saw them in my dad's office and they were colorful- so I wanted my hair to be colorful too. So I took a handful of them & put them in my pocket, brought them home and stuck them in my hair. Needless to say- I thought it looked good :)

What I Remember..Ummm.

WELL, since I was absent two classes ago- I'm only going to be able to talk about last class (9-19-2011). One thing that really stuck with me, of course, is the ladies that presented together. They recorded a "song" I believe it was called, and yes, I laughed so hard and smiled until my cheeks hurt. I thought they both were really creative with it and really enjoyed doing the assignment. That's one thing about this class- you have to have fun and really let yourself go to even be able to do this class.

Bravo Ladies, Bravo.

I Can't See Clearly Now...

For this assignment I really didn't know where to begin. Everyday I would sit there and listen to everything I could. Now, I was doing homework- but yet my cellular phone kept going off. I was so frustrated that everyone kept calling that I put it on silence. Then it hit me.


Most people I have in my phone have a ringtone- Sooooo.. if i heard the "Sister, Sister" song, I knew it was my best friend, Emily or if "Pretty Fly for a White Guy", I knew it was my boyfriend, Michael. I didn't even need to look at my phone to see who it was- I already knew because of the sounds that were programed to their names.


So yes, I can't see clearly now.

Surprise! ! !

For my assignment I honestly couldn't think of anything that would "be more than it first appears". This one stumped me. So when walking my dog the other night, on Mass Ave, we came to a hult and I was a bit confused on the layout of the sidewalk.

A moment later, my boyfriend joined us and he started to laugh because right above me was a sign that clearly wrote what was happening in front of me.

Thank you Indianapolis. Because over on Washington Street & Fountain Square, we are unaware of what the Cultural Trail looks like. PS It's time to finished construction. THANKS A MIL!

What Stuck To Me.

During class we discussed what people did with their egg, and one thing that stuck out to me was the boy who had sooooo many things to say about "what he thought the egg meant, and all this mumbo-jumbo".. THEN he said he had a "PLAN B", which I know the teacher was shocked, but yet I think the students were too. He busted out this AMAZING detailed picture of the egg, and how he was thinking about video games, and whatnot when he was thinking about what to do with it.. I seriously thought to myself-- THIS is his PLAN B? The details in this picture were unexplainable, so down to a science-- kinda thing. This boy has a serious gift- and in all honesty, should have never second guessed it. Bravo.

The Egg & Eye.

For this assignment, it actually took me awhile to figure out "something" to do with this plain old regular egg. During class we were told a couple of examples of what people did in the past, and I really thought hard about something that was important to me- yet fragile like an egg. 


One word came to mind... Family.


My family has always something that has been important to me, and during my senior year- my "egg" cracked. My family broke. It's something that has always bothered, and honestly something I've never been able to overcome. It was so fragile to me in so many different ways, and when that moment happened it was like a million little pieces broke & shattered. 

The picture of my egg sums up how I really feel about my family now. Broken, shattered, and fragile. 

Course Expectations

HELLO!

For this course I really don't have any expectations. I honestly don't want to have any.. I don't want to expect the expected. All I know is just from one class, I'm ready to let my mind go & really shine :)

First & Finest

THE SiMPLE THiNGS iN LiFE.

:)